Well hello there. I have taken quite the hiatus from blogging over the last few months. It’s hard to believe the last time I put the proverbial pen to paper was back in February. So much has been going on both ends of the happiness spectrum that it has been a bit overwhelming. I have wanted to write an update recently but have been struggling to find the words that adequately describe everything. So there is a very good possibility this will end up as a bunch of rambling from my emotional self.
Back in October of 2013 myself along with everyone employed at my job was informed that our doors would be shutting in a year. That we all will have staggered end dates that coordinate with the business need at the time. Mine was in June of this year. During this same time CJ and I had been discussing a change in employment for him as well. Mostly it was just tossing the idea back and forth. In March of this year the decision was made to make the switch for CJ. At the beginning of May CJ left his job and started working as VP/Service Manager at his dad’s company.
Meanwhile, in April had been a very emotional and stressful month for us. My Aunt passed away towards the beginning of the Month and on her birthday, April 15th; we found out that baby # 2 is on the way after 6 months of TTC. It was a hard time of dealing with the emotions of losing my aunt and celebrating my pregnancy at the same time.
The first trimester was rough full of morning sickness that lasted all day and night, off and on bleeding throughout the first 14 weeks, beginning fully exhausted from not sleeping due to said sickness and spotting. I was a big bubble of stress but tried to put on a brave/happy face. I felt so blessed to be pregnant with another baby but was also very worried that something would go wrong.
June came and went rather fast; before I knew it was the 30th and my last day of employment. Our plan since before we even were married and had children was for me to stay home full time once we had our second child. Full time daycare for one child is spendy, but full time daycare for two kids is more then I would bring home each month for what I was making. I have never made it a secret how much I wanted to be home with Zach and now my wish was finally, FINALLY coming true and I was beyond excited. Then I got news from my cousin in Oregon that her dad was sick, really sick, but didn’t want the whole family making a fuss on him. Then he got worse and the call no one wants to get came, My great uncle had passed away and went home to our Father in Heaven. Just a couple months after my aunt we once again had to say goodbye and it was hard.
July started off well, I fell into a great routine with Zach and we both were thriving. We found out that Baby #2 is a girl and are thrilled to meet our princess. Then CJ, Zach and I went camping just outside of Flagstaff and while we were up there my sister called and informed me my Grandma who had just recently found out that her lung cancer had returned had had a stroke. I freaked out because I was far away from my family and CJ and I decided we needed to drive back down to Phoenix. My grandma never went home again, she was in the hospital for a little more than a week, they had resolved the blood clot that caused the stroke but the lung cancer was just to advanced and her heart was tired, so my dad and my grandma made the difficult decision to bring in hospice. July 20th my grandma joined my aunt and the rest of our family that has passed in heaven. This is hard for us all, especially my dad, having to say goodbye to so many family members in such a short period of time takes its toll and it sometimes hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when dealing with that much grief.
August and September passed fairly quickly. We celebrated Zach’s 3rd birthday and my nieces 5th birthday and it was awesome to be surrounded by all that happiness. I still find it hard to believe that my sweet tiny, to me, baby boy is now three and full of opinions and trying to negotiate EVERYTHING. I love all this time I am getting to spend with him and being able to get ready for the arrival of our newest addition. Time really seems to be going by fast now.
We are also lifting CJ’s aunt up in our prayers. She is very sick and hospice has come in to help her be comfortable, so I ask that if you have time to please send your thoughts and prayers her way and to my family I would greatly appreciate it.
It is hard to believe we are half way through October with only 10 weeks until my due date and getting ready for the holidays. I am really looking forward to all the celebrating this year. Christmas time should be interesting as my due date is December 22nd and I am a little nervous about it. But our family is amazing and all saying that we will just play it by ear and that we are all on little miss’ schedule. It is funny to me that she isn’t even here yet and she already has us all wrapped around her sweet little baby finger.
Over the last month I have gotten back into my paper crafting which I have missed very much and it has been a great distraction to everything else. I have also started selling them which has been such a blessing for my little family so far.
I guess that is all for right now. I am hoping to get better at blogging I miss it very much.
Until next time…